Sunday, December 30, 2012

Pain

Well I doubt anyone reads this blog anymore as I have been MIA for quite some time, But I miss the therapy that writing down the simple little things in my life brings. So 2013 I am turning over a new leaf, starting fresh, and taking time for the things that make me happy. The last couple years have been well hard, but they have been for almost everyone I know. It seems people are being tried in so many different ways. Trails that are seen and obvious or trials that are hidden and secret. Both very real and very hard. I am reminded of a quote I found on pinterest that reads

"The prettiest smiles hide the deepest secrets. The prettiest eyes have cried the most tears, and the kindest hearts have felt the most pain."

There have been days that I feel my heart was broken and wasn't sure how long it would take to fix it, or if it could even be fixed in this lifetime. I have felt hurt so deep that it literally felt as though I was breaking into tiny pieces.

But I realize it is at these moments that if we allow it, we become closer to God. We understand the atonement a little better, and start to see a glimpse into what our Savior Jesus Christ did for us. That light (no matter how small) starts to peak through the clouds. Hope is reborn.

I don't feel put back together yet but I do feel I am on the mend, I feel closer to my Father in Heaven, and my Savior. I also feel that I have an added depth to my soul I understand things and people a little bit better. I am so thankful for this life the opportunities and experiences that ultimately will shape us into the people that God intends us to be.

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Pavilions

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"Our own desires, rather than a feeling of "Thy will be done," create a feeling of a PAVILION blocking God.  God is not unable to see us or communicate with us, but we may be unwilling to listen or submit to His will and His time." (Where is the Pavilion; Henry B. Eyring)


There have been different times in my life where I feel distant from my Father in Heaven, I feel He is so far away, I realize it is usually when things aren't going as planned and I feel upset, sad, or mad at the situation. It is at these times that I need God the most. I want to work on not being so stubborn and realizing that this is the Lords way for me.  Yes easier said than done, but will make life so much easier:)

"We remove the Pavilion when we feel and pray, 'Thy will be done" AND "in Thine own time." His time should be soon enough for us since we know that He wants only what is best." (Where is the Pavilion; Henry B. Eyring)